JORDAN

hoping one day you'll miss us all enough to look at this and see what i've written for you:

It is october 9th, 2007 and things between us are kind of messed up... You hate me because i just can't seem to let go of you, and i hate you because you just can't seem to find a way to want me back. Over the past 10 months i've done a lot of stupid things to and for you. I just thought i had all the answers... But every effort came up short. One day i hope this finds you well. This is the day i let you go. Even though it wasn't my choice and it was the last thing i ever wanted to happen between us. Some how you slipped away, and we grew older. Even through all the fights and pain and harsh words and things i forgot to say and things you just didn't want to admit YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND. My only wish is that you find me again, wherever we are, what ever has happened. FIND ME, because i'll be there and you will still be in my heart. You will always have a place there, inside of me alongside all of our memories. You gave me my innocence and you showed me true happiness within myself. I wished for far too long that you would just give me that chance again, like you always have... But i see now that that just isn't going to happen so im leaving  you now. Remember me always. I love you always and forever my dearest Jordan.

Love Rachel Beth Lewis (your past)

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I am in love with UNDERWORLD 2. I need to see it again